Oh hello guys, yes I'm back again with another one of my little (I say little this will probably be long like the last blog) ha-ha. Well I'm just going to tell you my coming out story, how I came out, why I came out etc...
Well I don't really know where to start off with this one, but let's start on when I first realized that I was gay. So it was when I was about 12/13 when I was in year eight, that I realized I wasn't interested in girls and I was physically attracted to boys. From a very young age I've never had a father figure and always been brought up with and around girls, I have a HUGE family and they're all girls except for me.
So at school primary&high school I have always hung around with girls and like I said when I was in year eight I knew I was gay but acted straight I didn't dare to come out because I have a really rough family so I was scared in a way and didn't want to get judged and abuse. My friends and even my family asked me if I was gay and they said they would be fine with it, but I still went along and told everyone that I was completely straight!
Anyway all that went on until this year! I came out in January the 23rd I think it was (I know the date, sad I know) but yes that's when I came out and it was the hardest thing I have ever done. And this is how I did it:-) well basically about a month before I came out I told my school counselor and she said I should tell people when I was ready. And then I told a friend well she wasn't as much as a friend as I didn't really know her so I wasn't bothered if she judged me.. But thanks to her she helped me to come out she game me all the encouragement I needed but I was still thingy about the idea.. And then when I was in school this boy (he; s like one of the boys you would class as 'hard' and wouldn't mess with) and he asked me if I was gay and said to me if I am then I should just come out and no one will judge me. So I was happy that he said that.
In the end I first told my older sister, she was at my nans and I texted her telling her and she didn't believe me at first, then when she knew I was serious she was a bitch shocked, and a bit pi**ed off because she has stuck up for me in the past when people have said I was gay.. But after that she told my nan and then my nan text me and I had a conversation with her (not in person) and she told me it was fine. So then I asked her to tell the rest of the family because I was scared myself.. After that I told two of my best friends from school and they were really proud, plus they always wanted a gay best friend! HA, And then even more difficult I have 2 Muslim best friends which I was kind of wary about telling because in their eyes being gay is wrong.. But they weren't bothered!
So basically my family and friends knew then, but then my best friend suggested that I did a status on Facebook telling everyone (because I'm quite popular on Facebook and everyone sees my statuses lol) so then over 300 people saw/liked/commented on that giving me all support, telling me they're proud etc.. I even had all the 'lady lads' commenting nice things which were ace! And everyone respected me for coming out because I am LITERALLY the only person in my school till this day that has come out.. And luckily thanks to my sister and the attitude I have I'm not the kind of person people would say anything to so I never got abuse and still haven't had any abuse for being gay. So I'm happy and I am so glad that I did it!
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